Tuesday, January 22, 2008

The birthday week is over and I'm a little bit sad. Since Christmas this is what had occupied the space in the back of my head. It's the space where upcoming events live. Things that I obsess over when I'm tired or finished obsessing over the urgent things that live in the front of my mind (when is my next snack, what are we having for supper, how long can I wait until I do laundry again.)

Kaitlyn's last two birthdays had been "strange" at best and I was determined that this one would make up for the others. It was so amazing and wonderful and all the things that I hoped it would be that I almost couldn't believe it was real.

Yes, she got more toys (like she needed them). Yes, she got gum (thanks Lala and Shelby). Yes, she got clothes (what could a few more clothes hurt, right?). Those things were all wonderful and I appreciate each and every one of them.

What was more important to me is that she got a house full of family members who came to share her special day and shower her with love. After she opened presents she went around the room and hugged everyone. It made my heart melt as she crawled into the laps of these amazing people who love her.

As I looked around the room I couldn't help but remember the New Testament passage about the birth of Christ. It says that "Mary kept all of these things and pondered them in her heart". I think of that passage often as I watch my ladybug grow up. There are times, like the birthday party, that I sit quietly and watch Kaitlyn as she interacts with the world and the people around her and I try to memorize the moments. I ponder them in my heart often and they always bring a smile to my face.

Kaitlyn is three now. Wow. Where does the time go?